Holy Beta, Batman!!

I had my third and final blood draw yesterday afternoon. I called for my results this morning...HCG 18,079 & Prog. 41.63!!

I am floored. We definitely have one of two things happening here. Either this is one snuggly bug or we have two very happy bugs! I am just happy to see those numbers climb. The first number doubled at a rate of about 31 hours and this one took about 38 hours, still on track and still high high high!

I'll admit all kinds of fears are running through my head. What if something is wrong and these numbers are simply TOO high? What if the nurse knows something but is just waiting to tell me? I almost want to puke thinking about all the what ifs.

I need to focus on the facts.

• Fact - I am very much so pregnant.
• Fact - I am not having any real unusual pains, just the typical occasional cramps.
• Fact - The nurse said my "numbers look great!!"
• Fact - The stars aligned to bring us to this point, I fully believe they are staying aligned just for us.
• Fact - I am tired. All. The. Time.
• Fact - I am a nervous wreck.

If I focus on the facts, I can calm down a little. We just want this so badly, and now that it is completely up to fate...it is hard not knowing. I am going to miss getting results next week to reassure me that things are still going as they should. Prepare for neurotic, overreacting, crazy lady posts for the next bit.

Netflix will be my saving grace for the coming weeks. I keep googling and I really need to stop and trust that what the nurse says is true, my numbers are great.

We are already perfectly fine with twins if that is the case. Of course, the nurse made no mention of possible multiples...I understand why she wouldn't anyway, what if something happens between now and our u/s? That'd suck. For now I am just having a mix of emotions. I'm telling myself its totally normal.

Next appointment (including the first u/s) is March 21. That seems like a lifetime from now!! For now, I'm not even tired...I think my adrenaline is running on high. I need to just relax, HA!!