Back to Reality

We are actually on the plane back to Nashville as I type this. --it is a Word Doc…but still, we are on the plane-- Fun stuff! I really am not looking forward to getting back into the normal routine of real life :( Our trip was awesome, relaxing, carefree, and so much fun…Even when Stace & Court were ganging up against me!!

Our flight out was delayed nearly 2.5 hours…so we spent close to 6 hours hanging out in the Nashville airport, with no free wifi…or I’d have probably updated that we were super bored. But if we had free wifi we could’ve watched Netflix or something!! We didn’t get into SD until around 11:00 (2:00am our time). Needless to say we were exhausted!

We went to Sea World on Thursday, and all three of us got fried. It didn’t even get that hot, like 79 tops, but it was definitely sunny!! Whoops…I guess I’d rather get sunburned the first day than the last day. Now at least most of it has turned into a tan :)

We did most of the touristy things, walked on the beach, ate too much, drank some delicious coffee, bought some souvenir trinkets, and saw the sights. I will post some pictures once I get them to the computer. We really didn’t take too many pictures though. :/

Stacey has only lived in his condo for 3 weeks, and he didn’t have his wifi set up yet…or maybe I would have posted from there, too :) My phone also had less than average service where he lives, it was kind of nice to really not be super concerned with the happenings of FB or worrying about my phone all the time for a while.

Ok…so the moment we’ve all been reading for. The deed. The big show. The baby dance? Ha ha. Well, original plans were to insem Friday, Sunday and Monday. Friday we all pretty much just crashed & didn’t even worry about it (ok I was worried, but it really wasn’t a huge issue because it most likely would’ve been too early anyway). So, Sunday was the first one. It was weird. I knew it was going to be a little weird, but we were hilarious and bought a sippy cup to use for our collection cup. We named it the Death Star…not sure if that was a bad idea…but we did. We tried our best to make light of the situation. After all was done we convened in the living room to continue watching the Olympics, like it was no big deal. Because it was no big deal really! I used preseed & an instead cup (as best as I could, it wasn’t the easy thing to use, but after I didn’t use it Monday I could definitely tell how it holds things in place.) I probably should have used it after Monday’s insem too, but I thought I laid around long enough (a little over an hour watching more Olympics of course) for the spermies to get where they were going…we will see right??

I didn’t get a +OPK while we were there, I really didn’t expect to, but it would’ve been nice. Now we are hoping to see that tonight or tomorrow night. I had the normal CM that leads up to O, so I know we aren’t too terribly far off! My temps are still low, which means we didn’t miss it. For now we wait to see that temperature rise & then we get to wait some more!! I guess this is the start of our TWW? Or should we start counting from O? If it is now, I am feeling pretty stress free. We have done what we can for this try… All we can do is leave it up to the luck of the draw.  (P.s. we all found shiny lucky pennies at Sea World.) I’m supposed to start my next cycle the 22-24 of August…at least that’s what FF says, let’s hope that’s like 9 months off :)  

Court is napping, so I may try to do the same for a little while. We should touch down in a couple of hours.  

Until next time!! Baby Dust! 

Officially TTC!!

Ok in little more than an hour we will be on the road (literally) to TTC!!!! I can't believe we are finally to this point in our adventure! Amazing how time flies. We are driving to Nashville then flying out around 5:50 this afternoon :) Our equipment is packed. Both of my moms (Carol & Mom) have called this morning to be sure we haven't left anything out :)

I am anxious, excited and nervous. I haven't been able to eat today, because of my nervous belly. I had too much coffee so I am all over the place. I'm sure we will forget something...so long as we have the necessities we will be fine. I wrote a list like a mother to a babysitter for our furbabies. I watered my plants at work, payroll is set up for my back-up to complete next week. All that's left is to get to San Diego & be stress free :) ha. ha. ha.

Our Plan: Start POAS today (even tho I am only CD8 & I know it will be -) I want to be sure to catch the LH surge. We will do insems Friday, Sunday & Monday...maybe, maybe Tuesday early morning...in hopes to have plenty of swimmers 'on deck' waiting for that little egg to come out to play! Still expecting O Monday or Tuesday. We know it is going to be early for some of the insems, but I'd rather be safe than sorry. Sure enough as soon as we don't insem Friday night, I will O early on Saturday and possibly miss out. I typically O CD13-16, last month it was later...so luck will have it that travelling will make this one sooner. Also, after doing some reading, healthy spermies can live for a couple of days in my system. We have no reason to suspect anything unhealthy from either me or Stacey, so that's what we are banking on!!

After all is said and done, either this works & our timing is perfect - that's what it all depends on anyway - or it doesn't work this time. We will keep our heads high and move on to the next try. No biggie :) I am just excited to be here. I don't think Stacey will ever know how grateful we really are to have him. What more could a couple of girls ask for?!

Wish us luck...because here we go!!

My Girl

AF finally made an appearance after the crazy ovulation cycle from last month, and according to FF, our timing is still pretty good...if not perfect :) My boob is healing nicely from the two incisions. We have our bags mostly packed for our adventure to San Diego in TWO days!!! I'd say things are right on track again :) We are feeling good about everything, mostly excited and happy to be going on vacation. We are looking at the baby part of it as an awesome perk to our trip!! Not stressing too much.

Have I mentioned how cute my mom is?? Well she is. She came over Friday evening to spend some time with us before she and the rest of my family headed to FL for vacation on Saturday. I could tell she was a little apprehensive about something. I thought at first she was just sad about going on a family vacation without me (which she is & I am, my whole family is in Destin right now...and I'm about to jetset to the other side of the country). It wasn't until she started asking about our 'plans' for our trip did I realize she was actually concerned about how 'this' was all going to work out.

I'll just say it. She thought we were literally going to use a turkey baster......a Thanksgiving turkey baster.

See...she's cute. So, to put her mind at ease, I asked if she'd just like to see what we are going to use. (I'm so glad the relationship I have with my mother is strong enough to talk about sperm and syringes and preseed). After seeing that we were NOT going to try to use some huge turkey baster to make a grandbaby, she was happy knowing the chances of it having three arms and 6 eyes were less. Shew. The teensy tiny syringes are smaller than a tampon! hahaha I couldn't imagine a turkey baster!! I'll admit the laugh she gave us was much needed. Also, I think I am ready to tell her about this bloggy poo, now that she is all in the know about how things are happening. Might as well give her some reading material while she's at the beach! Hi Momma!!  :)

Also, this happened...Courtney was super cute a few weeks ago. I'll set the scene-- One Friday evening I was feeling gross in my compression wrap just two days after surgery, we were watching some mindless TV, it was getting late so by 'watching' I mean with one eye open trying to prove I'm still 24 not 54, and I can stay awake past 10:30. Court told me she wrote something for the blog and asked if I'd like to hear it. Of course I would....this is what she had to say:

"So Jamie and I have been together a little over a year now and life could not be better. I can honestly say that she brings out the best in me and makes me want to be a better person. She's got it all together, she's so smart, super silly and, to top it all off, she's gorgeous. I couldn't imagine my life without her. She has made me a full part of her life and her family and I could not ask for more from her and never repay her for the happiness she has brought me. And, although she may not want to admit it, she can be a little sweet.. just sometimes. I have always wanted kids, but had never actually been with anyone who I could see myself wanting a family with up until her. There's no person in this world that I would rather spend my life with and raise children with and share all of my adventures with. Every single day I love this girl more and more and I know that this is what it's like to really be in love.. so basically what I'm trying to say is that I like it so I wanna put a ring on it." < this is a joke...about the song & it is totally perfect.

Then she reached in her pocket and pulled out a fantastic ring!! I am fairly certain I know what being in shock is now! Duh, I said yes. After asking a million times if this is real life. First of all the ring was exactly what I had talked about liking...and she did a great job finding something so similar. (& we actually said we'd not tell anyone this, but here I am doing just that!) It was too flashy for me...I know I'm terrible! She, being the wonderful future wife she is, took me to exchange it for something more low key. The fine people of Jared were more than happy to help and we went home with this gorgeous piece of love....

Now we just wait until America comes around to the new age. We don't want to run off and get married in someplace that isn't our home, just to come back with literally nothing. If it is just a ceremony that means something to us, then it is already in our hearts. For now, this is perfect. Our life is perfect.

**All we are missing is a baby! In two days time, just two days...we are going to try to make that dream a reality :)** 

Weighting Game

So I still haven't seen AF yet, I am waiting [im]patiently. Each day that passes surely pushes O away even further....we don't want that. We would like for O to be around August 4-7, because that would be ideal :) Of course that's what we would like!! But because last cycle (I guess this cycle still UGH) was so messed up the 'ideal' pretty much flew out the window. At this rate, however, we are still going to be in the range of "right" time, granted it is a long shot, there is still a shot!! & we are going to take it :)

In the meantime, Court & I are doing a cleanse. A Pinterest find called The G.M. Cleanse. Apparently it was formulated back in the 50s for General Motors Company for employees to get in shape and be more energized and all that jazz....click here to check it out. We are on day 2, veggie day. I am down 2.6lbs from yesterday, and Courtney is down 2.8! So we are doing something right. We wanted to do something to kind of trim down a little before we jet set to SD, and with my boob still healing it isn't super easy to go for a run or lift weights...changing our diet was/is the easiest. Don't get me wrong, eating THREE things yesterday was not easy by any means...really. hahaha it is a test of your wills & I am proud to say we both won, at least the first day. Today is still early...and I've had a plain baked potato for breakfast. I can see you are all jumping on over to that link now, you can hardly weight --see what I did there-- to start this super awesome cleanse :) Honestly, I do feel better already, and surprisingly that potato really did help with the energy!!

I'll be sure to update at the end of Day 7 with our final results!!

How about for now everyone cross your fingers and toes and hope that my little body starts to act normal, like RIGHT NOW :) Cool thanks!

Until next time.....BABY DUST

Boob Job...no not that kind...

I (Jamie) had surgery this morning to remove two breast masses from my right breast. I already had a biopsy on both of them & they came back as something called firbroadenomas? I'm sure I've misspelled that. Oh well, I know they are most likely absolutely nothing. (they are running them thru pathology again just to be extra sure) They suggested removal, especially after knowing we are going to start trying to make a baby in 21 DAYS!!! Apparently these types of masses will grow significantly during pregnancy, because they feed off estrogen. I really wasn't going to take that chance.

All went well earlier, surgery was at 11:00 and lasted less than 30 minutes!! I was only a little nervous, but I knew that I was in good hands. I have just been taking it easy the rest of the day. I feel perfectly fine, and I'm not really in any pain. Keeping ice on it through tomorrow & taking pain pills as instructed if I need them. I may go back to work in the morning, if I feel this great! Courtney has been an awesome little butler today :) because she is such a good helper, I may just milk it!!!

Baby Front: I have had a strange ovulation deal this month...I'm almost convinced I have ovulated twice. CD17 I had pretty bad cramping on my right side, followed by a temperature spike on Monday. However, no LH surge caught on OPK?? Weird, right? Yesterday and today I still had EWCM, slight cramping again, so I was confused and just decided to POAS (pee on a stick) just to see, lo and behold CD21 +OPK. Also, when I temped this morning it was back down to preO levels?!? Has anyone else had this kind of thing happen? I am slightly worried about maybe missing O at the beginning of August! Although my mind is at ease knowing we will be there for plenty of time to try around 3 times with fresh swimmers, maybe more spread out over a few days. I am trying not to think too much about it, because I have been so regular it would be way crazy for me to just suddenly be different (but it happens)

Court & I were just convinced that it's my body's way of trying to get pregnant faster :) I'll take that!

Until next time, Baby Dust to you all :)

The not so Bright Side

So I know all of our posts are very happy go lucky, but with this baby making adventure in mind there is also one thing, at least for me, that gets me down and that is support. Now I'm very much the emotional person in the relationship, so maybe I'm being overly emotional, but I don't have what Jamie has, family wise, by any means. This past weekend we went to my co-worker's house and stayed the weekend and we shared our excitement for having children and one of my co-workers kind of made a joke of it today and it just got me down. She said things like "you just need to give up on this baby making idea" and "it's not all it's cracked up to be." It bothers me because I used to feel so close to these people and things like this are being said so who knows how the rest of them really feel...

Then there's my family. First off they aren't supportive of my "lifestyle" so you can imagine how they feel about a baby. My mother told me that it would be a disaster to bring a baby into this world under my circumstance, aka being gay. Now I know some people would look at this and say that it may not be the right time to try this, but I'm never going to get their approval. I've come to terms with the fact that this will most likely never happen, but it doesn't mean that it doesn't bother me. From time to time I get down thinking that they won't be there for those special moments and probably won't even take our baby in as one of their own. So I guess.. if there's anybody out there in blogland who has any advice or happy thoughts in regards to that situation you can always throw them our way.

BUT I'm not going to let this whole thing be a downer because we have wonderful friends who are supportive, including our friend Stacey who is so supportive that he is giving us his swimmers to make the baby! And then there's Jamie's family. They took me in like I was one of their own and I will never be able to make them understand how much I appreciate that. My little eyes are welling up with tears even as I write this because, even though they are not my biological family, they've made me feel more a part of a family than ever. They're so great and I know that they'll be there every step of the way and offering more support than we could ever need as we start our own little family so for that I am so thankful. They're going to have the best grandmother ever and their grandfather will love them to death. Then there will be uncle Jeffrey and aunt Holly who will just adore them and I know uncles Jory and Jacy will fall in love with our baby.

So there's that. 29 short days until we head out to try this thing so let's hope for success!

Maybe Gayby?

I know this is going to sound a little silly, but I'm going to be honest. I want a gayby. Specifically a gay boy. I've just set it in my mind that when we have our boy Jamie's going to pop out a little Blaine from Glee.

Wouldn't he be so cute?!

I'm pretty sure we'll both have an obsessive urge to dress him in tiny little suits and button ups and vests any chance we get. I'm excited, yes :) it's not long before we set out to San Diego to start this adventure! 30 days and counting!!!