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BFN(big freaking fat farty negative).

I am 14 dpo...my temps are still slowly climbing. .3 up from yesterday, in fact. I had a pretty dark (not positive) OPK last night. I just wanted to see if that whole myth was true that you can get a +OPK before a +HPT(Home Pregnancy Test), well I definitely don't have a +HPT....even using one of those fancy First Response deals with FRESH pee this morning, nada. Unless my eyes at 6:00 a.m. were just not picking up the faintest of faint lines? I think I'll post pictures of the past few months I have charted...maybe you guys will have some insight?

So, May was the month I went camping, and had wonky temps to begin with. June was the month that lasted forever, & here we are now. I know I have only been temping for these three months, but prior to May, I was tracking my periods like a hound & I was like clockwork. A nice 28-30 day cycle, favoring the 28 days more. As far as I can tell, my temps are doing what they are supposed to this month...usually 10 dpo I start to drop...here we are 14 dpo & still climbing (be it little by little). That's good right?

Yesterday I was sure AF was just going to flood me at any moment. Then nothing. Today I feel completely fine if not for a little underarm breast tenderness and the slightest bit of bloating/pressure in my abdomen. I don't feel pregnant or like AF is coming. I have no clue if that is good or bad.

I am still holding onto that tiny thread of hope that I'm one of those late BFPers. If that temp dip on 11 dpo is in fact 'implantation' then I may not see a +HPT for even a few more days...right? I'll keep testing with my internet cheapies, because when we ordered the OPKs we got a bazillion.

I'm trying to stay away from Baby Center. Some of those ladies on the non-GLBT boards are just so callous and rude. If the way those ladies treat some people on a website bodes how they are as parents, then it must be true that lesbian and gay people truly are better parents than most. You can see the blatant difference in the way we meticulously plan and wait and plan some more, you can see the love that is there between partners, you can tell that every single child is wanted. The other boards...I don't see that. I don't see the love, I really don't see many people planning anything (what with their 3rd and 4th accidents & they call them accidents?!). Yeah, I know we are just beginning this journey, but really...really.

ANYWAY------It is my momma & Carol's birthday!!!!!!! YAY :) We will enjoy and celebrate them today and worry about testing another time...this will happen for us. We just need a little patience worry rock to hold on to or something.

Until next time.... :) p.s. keep your fingers and toes crossed!