Here Goes Nothing

Ok here goes nothing..

It's Courtney now. I'm finally talking.. or writing.. yayy!

Anyways my little Jamie and I had a discussion last night which brought us to realize our differences in the way we look at this whole baby making adventure. Jamie's nickname may as well be Detailed Debbie (if I write more you'll see that I like to use alliterations.. it's just fun for everyone). She thinks about EVERYTHING that I would never think of. I'm a pretty simple gal, you see. So Jamie over here is ordering Moby Wraps and ovulation predictor kits and such and I'm just thinking sperm, baby, yay. That's my thought process. I'm excited about the baby. Jamie's excited about everything in between. I guess I just don't think like her. Like I said, I'm a simple gal.

Sooo I'm going to work on doing my research and getting prepared for our baby making adventure. I have done some reading up on the whole at home insemination process and yesterday I bought my first item for baby making. Now when I say I bought it that, of course, means that I suggested it and Jamie bought it. Anyways my first purchase suggestion was a speculum. Why, you ask? I'm a very visual person and you pretty much have to explain everything to me like you would a 5 year old. So since I'm going to be the one injecting Stacey's sperm I want to make sure I'm doing it right. This whole thing may sound odd, but I went ahead and felt her cervix last night and we bought the speculums because I need a visual of what I'll be aiming for. I'm sure it's not hard, but I literally have to see it or I'll feel like I'm doing it wrong. It's like without seeing it I can feel it, but until I get that visual confirmation I'll be convinced that I actually touched her duodenum instead. That was funny, right? Duodenum. I'm just odd. If you can't already tell I ramble a lot and repeat myself. It's pretty much Jamie's favorite thing about me.

Ok so on to the next thing. The other day I was considering getting a baby book, but I was by myself and there were just so many and I couldn't decide which one to get. So Jamie mentions The Ultimate Guide to Pregnancy for Lesbians so I did some googling and read some reviews and such. I'm pretty sure that's the one that we need to get so that will be my next little bit of research and, from the looks of the reviews, it should teach me a lot about baby making, pregnancy and actually having the little beebee and knowing what to do with the tiny :) SO..

here we go!

Reconsidering

Well...that was the quickest turn around yet :)

We have decided to move forward without meeting with the RE. You know, there really is no reason to meet with them if we plan on trying at home a few months first right? I know I am a healthy girl & I am going to my regular PCP to take care of the only known thyroid issue thing today. If for whatever reason we are not successful a in a manner we feel is timely on our own, then we will schedule an appointment to talk about other options. This is where I envy the straighties...they can just really have fun with the trying part, and we stress & plan & time & chart & buy plane tickets & stress & chart some more. Don't get me wrong, when something needs planning I am all over it. I love to plan and organize things...so this really hasn't been a big stressor for me. It is a lot to consider even before the baby is in there!!

I sent a picture of my prenatal bottle to my mom with the caption along the lines of  "this is the hugest bottle I have ever seen..." she was confused this morning when she called me, "why are you taking them now?" "Well, Momma, it even says on the bottle...before, during, and after." "Oh...well ya know, it has been 17 years since I was pregnant!" She's cute :)

I think that's it. We are back to our original plan, getting all of our supplies together & trying the "natural way" starting when we go visit Stacey in August!! YAY :)

Happy Hump Day!

Hooooray!!

I was finally able to schedule an initial consultation with the recommended RE, Dr. H!! :) ...I was reassured that they are, in fact, the only RE in Small Town, TN that openly & happily sees LGBT patients. I wasn't at all surprised by this & you know what? I am happy they are the only ones, because that means they know what they are doing and they are good at it!! When she asked about the sperm donor or if we had any donors in mind from a bank, I told her again that we would really really like to use our KD, even knowing it could be a longer process & there are quite a few hoops to jump through...she said they are more than willing to go that route if that is what we want to do. She was sure to tell me again some of the cryobanks they are very familiar with just to have an idea of what all is out there. I appreciate her being thorough & wanting to make sure we are ready for the June appointment. Of course, I have had a list of questions to ask on our first appointment for over a month.

What I am REALLY hoping for is to get some insight (or at least a blessing of sorts) for 'at-home' inseminations.

**I am open to any an all suggestions on what we need to ask and anything maybe you thought of after your first appointments that you wish you knew?**

OPKs & BBT thermometer came in the mail, buy in bulk save dollars (in this case at least)...So I am ready to wake up every morning to that alert on my phone telling me to chart!! I also started taking prenatals last night. To my surprise they really aren't that big. I have always read about them being way too big to even bother taking, but I had no problem! Cool :)

Also, another CD1 should be in a few days. I sure do have the PMS crankiness to prove that. I can't wait to see what for real BBT temps will do as opposed to a regular thermometer.

I have my follow up appointment with my PCP about my under active thyroid issues, or lack there of. This appointment will be the judge of that! Fingers crossed it can all be easily taken care of, whatever the outcome.

I am beyond ready to get this ball rolling. A baby really is the only thing missing from my life. I have the perfect girl, perfect family, perfect friends, all we need is one little squishy, pooping, crying, bouncy baby to complete this perfect life!! 

Baby Dust :)

Courtney Thinks I'm Crazy

I justify spending money in ways that no one will ever understand. Yesterday, I bought a Moby Wrap, you know one of those baby wearing scarf-like things...yeah I did that.

I bought one. I am not pregnant, haven't tried the first time yet, & haven't bought the first plane ticket to try. But, I still did it. I was just trolling the Amazon...there is a stinking Amazon App on the iPhone (makes it that much easier to spend dollhairs) and I came across baby things. Let's be for real. I was searching everything baby. I do this often because literally everything is cute...even nail clippers. They are so tiny, and there is something you must know...I love all things tiny.

Anyway, there. I have admitted it. I bought the first "baby thing" Courtney got mad at me because (wait let me preface this with: We are an old married couple that doesn't have any real problems so we argue about stupid things) OK so she got irritated I'll say, when I spent money on this wrap after I gave her a hard time for using most of the mayonnaise in the coleslaw at her birthday cookout...Mayo = $4 Baby Wrap = $40...I see the difference, but I only got upset about the mayo because what happens if we run out & I can't fix my sammich!? This baby wrap will be used for YEARS to come. literally. I am a frugal frannie when I need to be like...we don't need to use the whole thing of mayo for coleslaw next time...but I feel ok spending some money on a baby wrap that we will use over and over & hopefully for more than one baby!

She said last night "that could have been a baby shower gift!!" I was quick to remind her there are plenty of colors & designs she can surprise me with at a baby shower :) & the baby will need much more than a baby wrap...right?

TTC front? --Is this still considered TTC when we haven't actually tried yet? I feel bad using that term if we aren't actually using it correctly...maybe we should say PSTTC (planning stages of TTC)?-- anyway...I have called the RE a few times trying to make an appointment & have had no luck. I don't know why honestly. I know they are accepting of the homos because my OB/GYN referred them to me while stating that she is currently treating a lesbian couple that got pregnant with that REs help! I will keep calling. I know persistence pays off :) Staceface our KD is in the final processes of the San Diego job, should make his decision on Monday. Then, we can buy our tickets to vistit SD for the first time (or AZ depending on his choice) & give this baby trying thing a go for the first time!! I am so excited for him, because he deserves the very best life has to offer & this job offer sounds amazing. Plus all the benefits of moving to a place more open & accepting, with a beach to boot!

This is me & my sweet Stacey :)

I told my mom our plans to give it a go when we visit Stace in August. She is super busy working things out for my younger brother's high school graduation this Saturday that she hasn't really had a chance to just breathe. She did say she wants to have an actual conversation soon, touch base. Mom likes to say that a lot. Touch Base. She is my best friend and wants to know everything...so when we haven't had a real talk in a few days I feel a little lost, and I think she does too. After this weekend, things should calm down & we can talk...more than just her daily morning phone call, or graduation stuff. I am looking forward to it. I miss her!

Until next time...baby dust to all of you bloggers trying! & Sweet dreams to those learning to adjust to their new normals with brand new babies :)

Mayday?

Who knew there was such a thing as Mayday? or May Day? New to me that's for sure, but you better believe I took advantage of the extra 15% off from HalfOffDepot :)  Anyway...that was two days ago & I can't believe its been over two weeks since my last post. Honestly, I can't believe we are already to MAY!! How does time fly so fast?

Today is Court's birthday. Happy Birthday my love!!

 Isn't she the cutest little thing ever?! This is one of my favorite pictures of her, I mean...look at those eyes!

I'm horrible & have yet to purchase her gift...not that I don't have the plan (I really do) I just haven't had/made the time to physically go and get it. I admitted to her that I am the worst gift giver there is...and she is surprisingly ok with it most of the time. We are having a cookout at the house on Sunday with some family and friends...low-key and relaxed. Have I mentioned how much I love this girl? Just my kind of party :) Her only major requests for the cookout are Nathan's Hotdogs, a pinata, and homemade red velvet cake...I can totally handle that!! I'm actually a pretty great baker. She does the healthy cooking & I will fatten us up with cake & cookies galore!

News from the Homefront, you ask?

• Carpet is out & taken away.
• Yard Sale is FOR SURE happening this Saturday
• Court's office is actually starting to look more like an office (she can close the door now!)
• Floor for the bedroom is selected, not purchased yet

News from the babymaking front?

• Stace (KD) will be interviewing for a new job -in San Diego- next Wednesday
• I can honestly only think of pros & not many cons if this were to be true. Like; beach, plane tickets are virtually the same cost from here to there, beach, DLS (AZ doesn't time change), beach, oh and he will be super close to the beach.
• Only cons are he is still on the other side of the country...but that really doesn't change much from our normal plans.
• We are going to plan to visit him in August, in which case we might even try to plan around O time...might as well give it a try while we are all together!!
• Now I need to make a fertility Dr. appt, just to see where we stand on my end & what I need to be doing for myself in these next couple of months...

...........did I just say months?!? I sure did. It is MAY 3!!! According to my handy dandy FF app (Fertility Friend) if I stay on this same trend, August O will be somewhere around 8/3-8/6 that is a Friday- Monday...perfect timing? I say so. Plus, if we are some of the lucky ones, we could be celebrating two birthdays around this time next year. I know Courtney would absolutely jump for joy if she shared a birthday with our baby! I would love it too :) I bet then she'd think I was the best gift giver ever!!

It sure is nice living in the clouds sometimes with all my what ifs & wouldn't it be greats. I know I need to remain grounded, but it is way too easy to get lost in the daydream of our future. I know it will all happen when the time is right and all of that, but ya know what? With everything going as close to perfect as it can, I have no reason to believe the universe would work against us with this.

Congratulations to all the new babies & new mommies in blogland! & Good Luck to everyone waiting anxiously for BFP, baby arrivals, & other good news. It's all just a matter of time :)